Time To Find The Way Back

Due to a bunch of things happening at one time life went back to most of the old patterns.  

*No work outs

*No yoga

*Skipping meals... thinking just not eating, low calorie to make a difference

*Not enough veggies/fruit

*Eating late 

*Occasionally eating non whole grain pasta

*Nibbling on families goodies here or there

 It has to stop!  I had promised myself it was a life style change.  But it is all changing back.  Not surprisingly everything else is also.  Clothes are tight, not sleeping well, feeling very crummy and emotional.  Only good thing blood test numbers and blood pressure is still good.  I have stuck to portions, watching fats, low salt and no HFCS.  But as it is evident that does not work to even maintain.  So today  make a new plan and STICK TO IT.  

A few points so far though not finalized...

-No longer put myself last on the list

-No matter what some form of exercise serious every day

-Get the veggies in every day 

-Fish back in at least three times a week

-NO skipping meals

-Make the time to at least journal here to keep from one day slipping into the next if change is needed 

Sticking with You On  A Diet for now, hoping it will work again. Do think getting in the exercise is a big key though.  Time will tell.  Going to weigh in and measure *Gulp* tomorrow, though Sunday will go back to being official weekly.  

No excuses... life is what it is and it has to be worked around.  Here we go again, dusting off the Pilates machine and putting on the walking shoes.

Last Night Could Have Been Bad

Last night has to stay embedded in memory.  It was a slippery slope that could have turned into an ugly long drop.  Things built up all day and by late night overload.  Mindless march to the frig time.  Something was saying cheese over and over again. Why cheese, who knows. Like a dairy product would make it all go away?  Everyones world would then be wonderful, wouldn't that be good (along with tasty).  Thank goodness there was only one slice left there.   With that munched on it all went to a weird mix of anger.  First because there was no more cheese (how old am I?) and then because I had gotten to munching and letting things get the better of me. The ending  piece that has to burn into the brain is the realization that I let emotions talk way to much in my head as I get older.   After thinking probably way to much about it, it seems frustration is the top of the list.

BBL (this will not be an other one of those days ;-) keep repeating )

OK it is not about cheese but thought it was funny.

Mumbling... remember last night, today like a mantra.  It is the not being able to change or let go of frustrating things.  The things that are not going anywhere but keep repeating.  Reread part of the YOAD book on emotional eating.  It is fine but not really on the target.  The food is a quick straight  in the vein fix. It is tasty and good right then and there, it is cheap and doable, not illegal.  Ok it does not last but sometimes something tasty right then  just seems to fight with the, you will be better off  down the road with out it. Making more frustration. With each frustration bump today thoughts of grab a candy bar, look Oberwise ice cream up the road or maybe a big sloppy pizza for dinner scream out.  Last night and the sore muscles from renewed workouts fight back, are you nuts.  Maybe.  

Focusing In

With You on a Diet and exercise for 35 weeks I have lost 58 pounds and 8 inches off my waist. Inches have gone all over as well. For a while now things have stalled. This blog has been created to help focus in on where things could be done better. Still a long road ahead but this time it is for good.