I have read and liked Joseph Campbell for a long time. This quote had felt so true and in the past tried to follow it. In recent years other things came up that needed the time and focus. As situations are changing thoughts of bringing this back in seemed right. Here is the stumbling block, finding the bliss lane again. Tapping back into what it is. Where did it go, which way? Somewhere along the line it all became about others. Got very good at that, reading myself, not so good anymore. Do not seem to fit in my old paths. Back at the start but where is square one? Funny how you can lose yourself so deeply. With the health issues I'd found a way to reconnect with the body. Not always get it to do what I want but still hear it when it talks without having to have it scream at me. Somehow have to find that with the heart and soul. Maybe the numbers that I'm using to measure me (weight, measurements, size and age) will not be such an obsession if that connection is found again. I do not want to lose track of the weight goal but I have to stop having it be the measure of my personal happiness and worth. My mother was laughing (she not meaning to be mean) that the girl who was never getting married or having kids is the one who got herself into this place. She does not understand because she thinks that things as they are would be fine. For her they always were. If this comes up she seems to find it an attack at her choices. All I know is it is not working for me, not that it is right or wrong.
Hey universe could you just show a vague outline on the wall :-) ?
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