Just So Tired Of It

This week's weigh in has brought frustration with quite bit of feeling down. Though really working the exercise and food there was a small gain and no measurement changes. I had really hoped the trying to get in snacks and working the new routines would get things moving again. Getting so tired of focusing hard on this and not getting very far anymore. Portion sizes have not gone up, cravings have not come back, do not even really get hungry so no problem there. Religious about exercise, heart rate up and sweating, mixing up types and times so what else? There is still so much to go, just feels like I will never get there again. That thought got more thoughts spiraling so went out this afternoon and planted a couple hundred bulbs. Just lucky the weather was holding or the bulbs would never have gotten in. Guess the anger and frustration helped getting the dry hard soil prepped and turned. Hands and arms sore but it will be so nice this Spring when there are daffodils and tulips after a long cold Winter. Came in and made some soups for this week's dinners. Not sure what else to try this week but will keep thinking about it tonight. Have to get things going again, somehow.