do I have to force myself to eat?
Food Blah! *Snap* Snap*Snap~ (goes that rubber band mentioned in past post)
Oh my goodness the governor is talking and talking and talking, again. To bad he does not know how to keep it short, on subject and truthful. Hope people outside of IL look further than his version of reality. He is either full of crap and does not care or delusional. I usually do not like to talk politics but he is adding to today's frustration.
Had to stay home to try and deal with the big water damage of over two weeks ago. Even after all the phone calls. It is still wait for more return calls. It is a mess and it does not seem to get anywhere. Just keep thinking it will restart as soon as the snow and ice starts to melt again if we do not get somewhere.
Another reason for being home was fear the school would be calling. So far so good, fingers crossed. My son has been sick and home for five days. Today is the first day back though he is not 100%. It is added with the fact he has anxiety/depression and OCD issues that have been really set off lately. Last night at his therapy session they started him working on desensitizing to the OCD. It is very stressful for him he has to do things that trigger the OCD. I am to be his partner in it (therapist and son's choice not mine). This is much worse for him but it is still hard for me. It is a balancing act with reminding but not nagging, not punishing or fighting but being firm and when he keeps at me not pay attention she says (hardest bit). Making those work is not always easy with a teenager.
Oh the list goes on but even writing it feels like it is adding to the spiral so, snap again and move on from it. Going to go and have lunch even though I'm not hungry. Last meal was late lunch yesterday. Guess it was better than mindless eating to drowned it all. Maybe some hardcore cleaning will burn off the frustrations since I'm home. Going to try it out after lunch.
Maybe a good time to try and put together that positive list Diana at Scale Junkie was talking about yesterday.
1 comment:
I'm thinking of doign that positive self-talk list as well. Sorry to ehar things are stressful. I have OCD but just midly...I've gotten better over the past few years but boys, it's tough. It doesn't affect my physically but mentally, sometimes it brings me to the brink of breaking. So I say do whatever you need to do to destress tonight. You deserve it :)
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