Things Change

   Happy Halloween!

May today have many treats and few tricks.

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It is funny, the treats were not a problem and there are a lot still here.  It was the evening meal and snack that were mindlessly enlarged.  Looking back at it emotional eating snuck in, like the evil creepy monster it is.  So much at this time of life is changing and I'm not dealing with it very well at times.  Along with the usual things that point this out, Halloween was not like it has been for years.  No kids needing costumes, no school function, no neighborhood celebration and worse almost no tricker treaters at the door.  There use to be hordes of them.  Fun costumes, giggles and thank yous up and down the street.  Sadly turned the porch light off, blow out the candles and bagged up the large bowl of candy left when the local tricker treating hours were over.  Moping back into the kitchen realized thoughts of leftovers were running through my mind.  Stopped and thought I'm not hungry so why.  Thinking for the same reason the portions were to big earlier.  And it had to stop.  The food was not really making me happy so go deal with it. Tomorrow will have to bring some extra exercise along with taking down the decorations.  Time for some new November goals.    

Slow It Down...

BREATHE

Inhale hope. Exhale determination. 

It was a crazy day. We all know those. Then you realize the jaw is clenched, muscles tight and lines creasing on the brow.  Time to just breathe.  Not the fast shallow ones but purposeful ones.  Feel it all release.  Refresh.  

Back To Sunday Weigh In

 

No change this week.  Was hoping something would show on the scale for the first week back.  Have to admit disappointment but need to get past it and keep going.  If nothing else the upward trend will be stopped.  

This week I will...

stay positive, this is beneficial even if no weight loss at the moment,

try and  advance work outs,

continue to add veggies portions,

manage stress better

Here's to a good week to come.

Crazy Yesterday

  Why does it never go this neatly when I do it? 

What was I thinking?  A couple hundred bulbs, edging off borders, winter clean up and raking.  It is getting cold and rain was in the forecast for the next few days.  It had to get done and Thursdays are the free days.  Then feeling guilty for no walk so did a Pilates DVD at night.  Realized how out of practice I am with the floor work.  This morning I can not move!    Feeling every possible place that could ache.  What happened to those days where the body did not fit back? Kept telling myself this is the last year for this, fully knowing the madness will hit again with next years catalogs.  

The meal plan was not followed since the yard work bug bit hard. Hoping no nibbling later balanced off the difference.   Just know if it happens to often weight changes do not happen.  Not sure if it is the blood sugars, that starvation theory thing or what.  

The rain has stopped for a bit so might be the best time to try and get a walk in.  Nice it picked lunch time!  Probably not as fast as usual.  The shins are so sore from kneeing and sitting back on them.  Here goes nothing. 

*Gardeners never get old they just need repotting.

Missing The Gym

Fun with treadmills.  But are they at their target heart rate?  No incline?

Feeling the need to get back to the stronger workouts but time and foot/leg not cooperating.  The walking (speed walking) I have done has them aggravated.  Just have to do it though.   Could not do the rebounder on the reformer tonight.  Got the rest of it in though.  It does feel good to get these things in again.  Going to try and come up with a yoga routine that will not bug the foot. Did not realize I'd miss downward facing dog.      

Two Points Hit Home Today

1. During Oprah's Dr. Oz: Your Brain During a Stroke, show which was playing in the background.

2. Skimming  Experience Life magazine.

The first point was how Jill Bolte Taylor spoke on that each moment can be a moment of peace.  How you view things and your attitude can shape your world . Also that how you view or feel about things can be picked up and put on others. The brain works on many levels.  it also sends out more then we may realize.  I knew some of these things at she drove them home like never before.  Her book My Stroke of Insight might be a need to read.

The second was a strong one of several in the magazine.  It was just a bit in a larger article but I realized there is a lack of people in my life that are working at these weight/health goals.  At the start of this there were a few friends and a few people at the gym.  As time has gone on some have quit trying and others have just faded off though possibly still doing other things.  It was nice to have people going the same road local.  Thinking of getting back into a local group or class.  

The two combined helped bring back the feeling that being present, gratitude, open and sharing is where focus should be.  

  

Still Trying To Work It

Glad an early morning walk got in before the rain.  Still trying to talk myself into doing a Pilate's work out tonight.  Not sure if it is the damp weather or fighting off a cold but really achy today.  Got a lot of work in anyway.  Did not get the snacks in but really was not ever hungry all day.  So hopefully the smaller three main meals will do.  Just can not make it a habit.

Ok, if a lose this Sunday is wanted get up there and work that reformer!  

So hoping a lose this Sunday will get the excited/positive momentum  back. 

Last Blooms... Not Many But Still Pretty

   

Putting up Halloween decorations and working in the yard decided to get photos of some of the last blooms.  Did not make it to the gym but after two days of yard work and raking feeling sore.  Just wish it raised the heart rate more.

Made a large pot of veggie beef soup.  Forgot how good it is on a cool evening.  Also made up some baked Buffalo wings for the guys (recipe off Whole Food's site) and they disappeared fast.  Just like the weekend.

Reality Bites

  Oh this is so the feeling... BUT it is not the poor scale's fault! Peeked at home (that scale if not as accurate as the gym but had to get an idea... or at least thought I wanted to. It is sooo not good! )

The eating and food has been fine but still not making time for the exercise and body/mind as I should.  How did things shift back to this?  After the surgery which started this journey people seemed to be willing to work with it but now it is like things had never been on an even field the past two years.  Going to keep fighting to reclaim some ground.  Walking did not get in but had a bunch of raking and leaf work done.  I know, not the same, heart rate not in the same place, but it had to get done.  Wanted to get the bulbs in but it was just to muddy still.  Hopefully this week.  

Favorite roasted veggie mix lately... red onion, yellow and orange peppers, snow peas, YUM.  My husband will only eat the snow peas but actually loves the flavor the onions and peppers give them, go figure. 

RRR the real age boards are not letting me post tonight, the address keeps bouncing around and then bombs on me.  Hope it works tomorrow.

Time To Find The Way Back

Due to a bunch of things happening at one time life went back to most of the old patterns.  

*No work outs

*No yoga

*Skipping meals... thinking just not eating, low calorie to make a difference

*Not enough veggies/fruit

*Eating late 

*Occasionally eating non whole grain pasta

*Nibbling on families goodies here or there

 It has to stop!  I had promised myself it was a life style change.  But it is all changing back.  Not surprisingly everything else is also.  Clothes are tight, not sleeping well, feeling very crummy and emotional.  Only good thing blood test numbers and blood pressure is still good.  I have stuck to portions, watching fats, low salt and no HFCS.  But as it is evident that does not work to even maintain.  So today  make a new plan and STICK TO IT.  

A few points so far though not finalized...

-No longer put myself last on the list

-No matter what some form of exercise serious every day

-Get the veggies in every day 

-Fish back in at least three times a week

-NO skipping meals

-Make the time to at least journal here to keep from one day slipping into the next if change is needed 

Sticking with You On  A Diet for now, hoping it will work again. Do think getting in the exercise is a big key though.  Time will tell.  Going to weigh in and measure *Gulp* tomorrow, though Sunday will go back to being official weekly.  

No excuses... life is what it is and it has to be worked around.  Here we go again, dusting off the Pilates machine and putting on the walking shoes.