Have To Keep All In Perspective

Things just keep happening.  Makes plans almost impossible.  Trying to keep emotions and stress at a decent level.  Going to get up very early to get into the gym! The college move has been moved to Sunday.  To much came up this afternoon/evening.  Major son issues arise. It's looking like anxiety is a major factor in some of the problems. I need the burn it all off of it. this just can not spiral.  History seems to be repeating it's self. Have to change the script.

Tougher Balance Ball Plank

We did these in Pilates class. Need to get back to them.

Dead Bug Hmmm

Like these. Going to use the balance ball more. Going to order a dvd of yoga on the ball also.

Starting To Come Around

Lost a few days.  Fever and no energy just wanted to sit or better sleep.  This has been a bad cold.  No exercise  just no energy but not eating a lot.  Things just do not taste all that great.  Went and saw the foot doctor and we decided it is time to have the surgery.  Have to set a date.  But looking forward to being able to do things normal again. He says things should be pretty normal just the two toes will be numb.  Figure it is that way some days already.  

Have to have energy tomorrow, so much to get in before the weekend.  Parent stuff, take son back to college, and house stuff.  Feeling the time crunch.  Take it one thing at a time. 

Stay The Same Week...

but sick all week so guess I'll take it.  Now the guys sinus cold has hit me.  Hope it goes by quick.  Busy week to come and need to get back to work out.  As it is my head would not make it.  

Can not believe it is the last week before school start back!  Where did the summer go?  Hope  Autumn is a pretty one (and long).   

Not Sure Why

But even with eating fine ... bloating bad ... weight not up ... huh.  Did not eat anything out of the norm.  Many be this stomach bug had something to do with it.  Hope it will be gone by weigh in tomorrow.  

Got off to another mixed up start.  Went to start the errands which would end up with the gym.  First one was messed up.  Threw it all off.  Chain reaction all morning.  No gym, at least for now.

BBL

Ok  10:30 pm, no gym today, head hung in shame.  Managed to keep them all happy.  

Fun Stops

Trying out Plurk ... link lower left.  Plurk On. 

BBL

It is addictive. 

Never made it to the gym today all suited up and out the door and phone rings.  Missed all week. Definitely in the morning (phone gets turned on after the gym :-)).   

Fun video found it on drawn.ca

Big Buck Bunny from Blender Foundation on Vimeo

Hey Mom..

we need more tissue and toilet paper! 

The house has been throughly invaded.  Four sickies at one time, not good.  Walking up and down the stairs seems like a major work out.  Just no energy.  Hoping not to get the full laundry list of it. So much for the gym this week.  Up side things do not taste good so not eating much either.  Maybe it will all work out even. Thinking maybe some fresh air and sun while doing a little yard work might kill off some of these nasty germs.  Wish we had a hammock.  Then work a little, lay down and store up energy, get up and do some more, repeat as needed :-).   Sounds lazy but also sounds mighty nice!

Few More Pics of Yard Flowers

This was clearer as a slide show. It lost sharpness when turned into a movie but could not get it to show as a Mac slideshow.  Really need some help with the switch over in systems.

Ok the first picture is not a flower but he was just coming out of the old skin when spotted.  He was actually one of the prettier cicadas I've seen.  Had not seen one with such beautiful green highlights.  Had just thought it sounded like summer lately because they were buzzing that morning.    

   

Happy Feet * Happy Face

Found this and it just made me smile. 

 

Got to thinking... use this image in my mind when the feet start paining.  Today went back to sandals.  Those orthotics drive the feet (even the good one) nuts because then it is the whole foot and ankle.  Now though the original pain or numbness   "seems" not as bad.  Either way think the surgery is sounding better.  So want to get back to full work out and being able to walk comfortably again.  Enough on that.

Finding an up side to my son's dairy allergy.  With the loss of his beloved cheese and cream base stuff he is coming around to other options.  He did not like the fake cheeses except for a faux parmesan.  Eaten plain it had a different texture but on or in foods it is not detectable.  Went in search of different marinades and condiment style things to dress foods up.  It has been hit and miss on the various ones brought home.   It was funny that in the end each trial item had at least one of us liking it.  He found a fake cream cheese he really liked.  Not so good yet on a sour cream sub (hoping to find something to make a ranch style sub.).  He found a soy milk he liked but decided the vanilla for drinking but plain on cereal.  Need a bigger frig.

Not sure how fast a person's system changes with diet changes and food allergies but got to wondering today.  I had thought my son was so different today, actually building each day.  So much more like himself (it has been so long with the shifted personality and moods, plus he always felt BAD).   My older son commented on it today and realized it was not just me seeing it.  All the medicine and stuff has been so complicated and had many side effects.  The tubes helped but this week each day seems to bring more of "him" back out.  Tonight my older son said "Oh my God bring the quiet one back!" .  Wonder if it is to much to hope for all health issues to go away over time for him?  Side note, Sat and Sun brought back quite a bit of his symptoms.  Guess the end of dairy, tubes and end of most meds. was not the lucky combo to end it all.  Keep on trying.

:-) Making Peace

BBL  ...heading to the gym to sweat and center.

So wound up with everything while trying to stay focused and unemotional.  The evening gym time though rushed was a good unwinder.  It was quite empty so really pushed myself.  Popping the yoga dvd in to stretch and end with a relaxation pose.  Going to try and stop thinking of fighting/hating this body and just let it go.     

First Week Fresh Start Not So Fresh

Thought the week was a good one but the scale had a different story to tell, UP again.  Still going to stay focused and work it but calling the doctor tomorrow for any guidance.  The first sight of the numbers on the scale almost brought the tears up.  Then thoughts of what could be done different at the gym.  Time was short so just decided to follow through with set work out plan for today.  

BBL ...ARGH   

Finally Decided To Give It A Try

Ok, liked this place.  It was good, fast and can be very healthy.  Mind you it can add up calories. and/or sodium if not careful. Lots of veggies!  Definitely going back.  Even Grandma liked it and she can be tough on new places.  

Create your own stir fry adventure

Last Night Could Have Been Bad

Last night has to stay embedded in memory.  It was a slippery slope that could have turned into an ugly long drop.  Things built up all day and by late night overload.  Mindless march to the frig time.  Something was saying cheese over and over again. Why cheese, who knows. Like a dairy product would make it all go away?  Everyones world would then be wonderful, wouldn't that be good (along with tasty).  Thank goodness there was only one slice left there.   With that munched on it all went to a weird mix of anger.  First because there was no more cheese (how old am I?) and then because I had gotten to munching and letting things get the better of me. The ending  piece that has to burn into the brain is the realization that I let emotions talk way to much in my head as I get older.   After thinking probably way to much about it, it seems frustration is the top of the list.

BBL (this will not be an other one of those days ;-) keep repeating )

OK it is not about cheese but thought it was funny.

Mumbling... remember last night, today like a mantra.  It is the not being able to change or let go of frustrating things.  The things that are not going anywhere but keep repeating.  Reread part of the YOAD book on emotional eating.  It is fine but not really on the target.  The food is a quick straight  in the vein fix. It is tasty and good right then and there, it is cheap and doable, not illegal.  Ok it does not last but sometimes something tasty right then  just seems to fight with the, you will be better off  down the road with out it. Making more frustration. With each frustration bump today thoughts of grab a candy bar, look Oberwise ice cream up the road or maybe a big sloppy pizza for dinner scream out.  Last night and the sore muscles from renewed workouts fight back, are you nuts.  Maybe.